Messing Up

People like to make it hard on good people so they mess up by accident and then no one likes them.

Mixed Race

People get ahead of mixed race people because they get more holistic and active experience, even affecting them physically, of socializing.

People don't get as close to mixed whites.

Abstraction of Focus

When people reach for abstract things from longer ago and say it's better, do they just mean things like the 1980s? which you can put a label on?  Sure, there were better things before, too, "who knows" when they started.

I figured this out. "Cool it."

The exploitation part of the fame of the older lady I like is just a precautionary measure like handling the coronavirus/COVID-19.

F.Y.I. (For Your Information)

Protocol, it's safe to assume I'm in trouble.  Don't let the suggestion of me give you a hard day.

More Subconscious Thoughts Floating Around After Dark

Are you generation-prejudice in your sleep?

Drawings/Colorings for the Day

video lessons

Hamster

My hamster got out of its cage, apparently I left a door opened.

Hamster

This hamster girl loves the external wheel, going in and out sometimes, running in it.

Hamster

I just got a hamster, and it came out when I played the violin near me on a wheel.

Does this mean...

Is it just me, or, because an older lady I like was exploited, does that mean people need and expect more of her than if she wasn't?

She was sort of advertised that way.  It seems not to be in the best ways possible.

"I wasn't made to..."

I am not made to satisfy other people's stupors, like wondering why I don't deserve to be hurt for some reason.  I was alert before, and I am still here now; it's not like you suddenly dominated me and satisfied me sexually.

"Ready as Ever"

I'm ready to do stuff, and no one else is, and I get the blame.

Me Singing Now

Weird

It's funny how people aren't afraid to be mean to me.

Reality

Do you see reality as how things are as opposed to how they should be?

"Taking Advances"

It seems some adult public figures or celebrities would treat me differently if I were still in grade school.  They seem to be forward with my generation.  Before, they would be taking a risk to make advances, which some did.

When Is Cool "Too Cool?"

I was counting on being cool in school.

Catching up on Sleep or Tired on Pills Now

I just slept a lot, over 24 hours, eating in between, and feel much better to be awake.

Cursed to Never Feel Special

When I ask about something philosophical and emotional, it's not like someone popular and "naughty" finally decided to say something good.  It's just boring, old Christina, who some people have known since birth but never talked to her as much as others.