Sunday, July 5, 2020
Silly
It's okay to be silly all your life, especially if it's time to retire, and people can be watching.
Overly Eager for What Reasons?
There are always ladies older than the older lady I like who are willing to get her where she's vulnerable and ward me off and sever our ties.
What is she doing?
For being crazy to teach people lessons, the older lady I like sure is having fun.
Message Board Post by Me
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Not sure if it'd interest someone like you coming from me, but I wonder if Ellen would rank well against those ladies. It all boils down to her skills in morality, in the end, how do things end up with her? Sure, she might be more exposed, though, but what did she do with that exposure? How does it rank against others of the creme of the crop? I desperately want to be compared with my equals, not sure why she wouldn't. Does some people want to be compared to people with opposing values that clash? No one's that bad, but with criminals out there they can be pretty crazy I guess.
Not sure if it'd interest someone like you coming from me, but I wonder if Ellen would rank well against those ladies. It all boils down to her skills in morality, in the end, how do things end up with her? Sure, she might be more exposed, though, but what did she do with that exposure? How does it rank against others of the creme of the crop? I desperately want to be compared with my equals, not sure why she wouldn't. Does some people want to be compared to people with opposing values that clash? No one's that bad, but with criminals out there they can be pretty crazy I guess.
Attractive Adults?
Why do attractive parents still have custody over their children, at least in spirit, if not also in physical form?
Making the Mark
Having kids is a big deal to some people. For some, it's just a job and eventually just retirement.
"Don't all go at once, now?"
Do colleges care if their students not only go abroad but want to live in Europe, like Germany, for instance-
Contemplating / Perplexed
So, if the older lady isn't a big part of my life, it seems as though some resentment is still harboured and leaves me wondering.
Something in Common
Famous Baby Boomer men like ranging from Andrew Lloyd Webber to Tim Burton, have a common thread.
Confused
I hope I didn't arouse my dad, he seemed self-absorbed as usual, though, unless I talk to him or he says something to me first. He's sick with a terminal illness.
Message Board Post by Me
…skipping the easy part and spending more time on the extra things, showing they've already mastered the basics that you need to know to say what they say. They did it at school, too, a lot at my Baptist college online. They didn't really seem to have good fundamentals, though. It was probably racist propaganda.
My Rights
So, the older lady I like has a thing where it's like she really is going in to tell me I'm nothing and says I'm just like my parents when I'm not!
Mean
Baby Boomers don't understand instant gratification because they didn't have computers as kids.
What if...
What if I told you you infatuation with Pirates of the Caribbean 1 was superficial? I forget why I thought that but did. You seem to have taken it for granted. It's a good movie. What's so better about other movies, anyway?
Trouble
I'm in trouble because people were secretly hurting me and the police wouldn't believe me so I tried to tell them or tell them telepathically how they were attacking me.
Mean to All
Should I be mean to everyone because they use me if I feel relaxed like they're nice to me?
Taking the Some Prominent People of the Creme of the Crop of My Relationships
It seems the people I meet the older lady I like has fun with but it ruins our relationship in ways that I bet are on purpose also because people said I was in trouble, so that was the determining factor, which I didn't do anything that bad.
Website Update
I updated this page with 3 entries, the 1st having been there already.
Attractive Musical Family (2015 or 2016?)
I watched a musical and saw there was an attractive floutist in the orchestra pit. I think they are local musicians, but I am not sure. Anyway, she had short red hair and was fairly thin and medium-tall. As I was waiting at the backstage door, I saw her come out I think. Her husband was barely taller, with probably fair balding hair, slumped over, one of those young professor looks, probably a beard and moustache, but I saw him from the back and maybe not the front. Anyway, the daughter was a little shorter with smooth wavy white hair, probably natural. She was cute, kinda thin but supple, you may get the picture. This may have been like 2015 or 2016 in Orlando, Florida, US.
Mother Who Looked About Just Like Someone Else (2016-2017?)
She had short gray hair and an upturned sorta snoot nose but in a good way. Her husband was taller and obese. She had several daughters I think, and the youngest was sweet and tried to say how the night was special it seemed to me. I was at a concert of the organ here in Orlando, Florida, USA.
A Polish Lady Who Looked Just Like Someone Else, the Same Lady as the Last Entry (DVD)
I borrowed a DVD from the library, and there were 3 on racism, all of which I did watched. It turned out to be mostly about Black people. They showed black and white video footage of people in the US being segregated. They showed Polish people, and first I saw one of them looked like a Polish violin teacher I had born around 1961 or 1962. She had bleached hair some below her shoulders and bangs. The lady in the video looked mad. Then, I saw one who looked like the lady the last one looked like but in a different way, almost the same, too. She had short gray hair and looked dressed up well for a woman. She looked full of good things, and it seemed people took advantage of the opportunity and didn't really bother with her, despite how attractive she was. She was Polish. The lady I'm talking about that looks alike is German.
Attractive Mom at the Grocery Store With Her Kid Daughter (July 5, 2020)
The woman was not too short but somewhat tall, thin but well built, looked emotionally responsive, and had short mousy maybe brown gray hair, a little textured and wavy. The daughter was maybe around 9 years old with a dress on that covered her figure, and this was Sunday afternoon so maybe church. She had slightly wavy mousy brown hair. She was a little obese and looked different from her mom. I was happy and responsive and nice to walk by, thinking reminds me of being fatter than my own mom, but I figured she wouldn't like it because my mom was pretty much a staunch former athlete/dancer and there was not much of her mom's kind of emotion going on and not so much in the clear in ways often.
Well?
An older lady I like seems to be shimmying saying she talks to anyone but really moves up.
Also, I keep getting told I don't deserve it.
Too Sad
Someone died from a car during a Black protest. They should really sign on online and try to protest that way.
Why I'm Not in Church
Instead of having a private experience, they're just slowly picking at me for why I'm not more well-rested.
Where did all the magic and love go for Generation X?
It's those kids from the late 1970s and early 1980s I bet.
Bad Racists
I bet some bad people out there are comfortable being racist to me automatically but like I did something because it's protocol.
Others Joining Choirs, Me Joining the Orchestra
Why can't I seem to learn new things? Am I in talent menopause?
Saturday, July 4, 2020
"This is fine."
Why do people keep leaving me out! Ever since Charlie and the Chocolate Factory (2005) came out, I had problems...
So what if I seem to make a mistake? I'm left out in the cold! Something bad is bound to happen. No one cares.
If you wonder what I think...
...I think they are bad. Is that enough, or are you just asking me to curse about them?
Accused
So, what, some people don't matter at all to anyone anymore because they think I did something bad when I'm usually good?
Speaking out Against Talking About Racism
It's funny when white people speak out somehow/secretly against someone who is not all White making valid points about racism.
I think you're wrong.
When I spammed my friends, I was lonely and they didn't write me back that quickly and not after I e-mailed them again ... and it was advice they seemed to beg for. The environment I was in was confusing, the people outside the apartment we had to move to because of Hurricane Katrina in 2005, but this was 2007. Yes, I spammed them for months, but I said I was sorry for it in the messages and they didn't do anything. They are free to just block me without saying anything first, and one did. Anyway, it's none of your business, right? You're just wasting your life, anyway.
Not That, Especially Simple
It might be easy to understand a lot of confusing writing with me, but that's a good thing!
I may seem spritely, and you just associate that as being like a child. I am free to develop how I want.
Friday, July 3, 2020
Message Board Post by Me
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Topic by Me, Continued From Last Post
People who fight for black rights just hate police because they look German-American. They think they are racist.
Message Board Post by Me
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Topic by Me
What do you think of the people fighting for how Blacks are treated?
I don't think they really care and are really racist. They just feel sick that the police act mean often more to Black people because the police are mean to them, too. Most police look German-American, and, since most Americans are not that German-American it seems, they resent the racist police who look German-American and attractive because they don't tend to be social to them, they think. They feel like the victim of racism, and most of them are not German-American or Scandinavian. I think another clue is that they don't fight for the rights of people who are half White half Asian, and within Eurasians there is racism for who's from Europe and who doesn't know if they're Native American indian, as genealogy tests have unknown sections and change the results sometimes.
Topic by Me
What do you think of the people fighting for how Blacks are treated?
I don't think they really care and are really racist. They just feel sick that the police act mean often more to Black people because the police are mean to them, too. Most police look German-American, and, since most Americans are not that German-American it seems, they resent the racist police who look German-American and attractive because they don't tend to be social to them, they think. They feel like the victim of racism, and most of them are not German-American or Scandinavian. I think another clue is that they don't fight for the rights of people who are half White half Asian, and within Eurasians there is racism for who's from Europe and who doesn't know if they're Native American indian, as genealogy tests have unknown sections and change the results sometimes.
People Who Are Nice to Asians
So, what, I'm bad if I like Asian things too but "White" things just as much?
Friends and Family are Foe
Some people I am related to or was friends with can't get on a good rapport so life can be worth it.
"Okay, I'm okay, now."
People ruin the world and say it's okay to come out now because they've ruined everyone else's lives to catch up.
Joke
People don't know who I was all growing up.
People I'm related to think they know the real me because I'm 1/2 Asian and they simply knew me since I was born or when they were older enough to remember for if some are younger... not that I'm "half bad." They just know they knew me and have a preset disposition of racism towards me.
Traitors
An older lady I like keeps being made to be seen as better than me and others, and they use it against me now.
Accusational
I feel some people chose to accuse me if something can be seen as either ordinary or out of the ordinary that I do, that technically did not have an assignment but left me wondering.
Everyone's on the lose, now school's over.
My generation is in high places, we just don't see them on the big screen.
Wait 'til I die.
Would people be more social if something bad happened to me where I could not enjoy life?
No one has to talk to me, no one has to talk to you.
I grew up normal and well-accepted, and now people are acting iffy about me, like I'm different.
"Crazy" People
People today went crazy over jealousy of me and wanting in on classical music and musical theater, and the social scene is unsafe. They don't seem nice to me, some.
In Trouble for "Stupid" Reasons
I think things messed up when people didn't get that an older lady I like isn't some weirdo attacking me through them like they swear, and if I get upset I don't really mean it against her but still wound up in trouble for stupid reasons.
Thursday, July 2, 2020
...And "What's So Good About THAT?"
What's so interesting about anyone if it's about their own family, and you can never get as close?
Wildly Suffering Since 2005
People are making sure I suffer racially since my generation left the house.
Give and Take in Some Situations
A full Asian cannot guarantee marriage to a Caucasian, but I can. However, a German might like an attractive Japanese or even Chinese over me.
Wednesday, July 1, 2020
Good Kids?
People like to secretly/telepathically indicate to successful part Asians that even if you're good there's more and that's that we're not liked and shouldn't expect to pursue happiness. It's like you're in trouble to try to be happy with things in life and doing things that are okay to make it like that.
Seeing If They Can "Rat Me Out"
I grew up well-behaved and did well in school and was nice to other people. Other parents wanted to take me home, and the teachers wish everyone were me.
Now, why are some people trying to say there's a way to "rat me out" and as worse than the rest?
Betrayal
What do you think of people who worship you strangely only to stop and betray you, frequently happening?
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